God will make a way

2012-02-15T11:30:00.000+08:00

I had a wonderful valentines this year! Thank u dear! I love u so much!

2011-10-11T17:54:00.002+08:00

I saw something I shouldn't see today! Argh!

I know I shouldn't be affected by it but somehow it still affect me.

I should be happy both of u are doing well now but why am I still so affected by it? Fk it! I'm damn jealous!

2011-09-30T18:01:00.002+08:00

i'm back to blog!

I've started working again! Mum open an office and I have to be there everyday. So damn bored at work and I wanna fall asleep.

Recently everything seems like not going smoothly for me. :(

Relationship sucks big time. Why must there always have problems in a relationship? Can't god create it in a better way? Why must it make people sad and having ups and downs?
Ever since 3 weeks ago, somehow things change. I know i'm not in the position to say anything cos i'm the 2nd but things happen just hurt. I tried to control and trying hard not to show my unhappiness out but I just control. I know i'm being unreasonable but I cant help it.
Seeing both of u doing very well and I might lose u anytime or maybe I should say I won't be that important to u anymore really makes me cry. I really put in everything in this relationship. My heart is with u totally. But why is god always making a fool of me? Why can't everything just go on smoothly? I really miss our beginning so much. We used to be so sweet. I miss cooking for u, I miss having late night out with u, i miss having breakfast every morning at coffeeshop telling u about what happen to me the previous night and u always show the jealous face. I feel happy when u are jealous about me cos it shows that u care and I know i'm somewhere in ur heart. Why? Why? Why are all the shit happening now? We can't go back to things like before cos so many things are happening one after another.
Vincent just came to office with her daughter and it reminds me of the time when u play with her. We were still so sweet that time. I really miss those time so much.
Dear, I really really miss u.....

2011-07-18T11:00:00.003+08:00

another month annivesary past.... This month is the most messy celebration and things didn't go as plan. Haha. But I still enjoyed myself so much with dear.. Thank u dear for giving me such a memorable day...

Love u so so so much....

2011-06-29T16:16:00.001+08:00

I miss u dear! Recently u have been busy with work and we didn't get to spend much time together. Miss u badly. Hugs!

2011-06-22T18:07:00.002+08:00

Lunch that I cook for dear for past 2 days!

Something I love about him because he always praise me no matter how awful the taste is and finish up everything. Thank u dear! Love u! Love u! Love u!

2011-06-19T14:51:00.002+08:00

Another month past. Happy anniversary dear.
Starting to miss u again.
Thanks for everything yesterday night. Love u dear.

First time walking along clarke quay with u, first time having shisha, first time taking trishaw with u and first time going to Novotel with u.
New memories created and more to come.
Love u! Love u! Love u!

2011-05-28T12:16:00.003+08:00

Boo! I'm back to blog again!

Just celebrated anniversary with bf on 21 May. :) I still feel happy and sweet though we didn't do anything. Pasir Ris Coasta Sand becomes 1 of our places too.

Can't wait for Batam trip on 11 Jun. I get to go overseas with bf again. (:

Was quite pissed off with my sis this morning. All thanks to bf who called and talk to me and makes me feel better. Can't wait to see him later. Hope he can finish work earlier.

It becomes a daily routine for me to meet him for breakfast before he go to work, lunch with him and wait for him to finish work at night. Cos of this daily routine, i'm lazy to go out already. Sometimes feel like going out but was afraid he might lunch or finish work early and I can't rush back home on time which makes me stay at home. Haha. My bf is really a smart. First guy who actually can make me stay at home for the whole day without the need to say anything to control me.

Didn't club for 1 month already!!!!!! Is a big improvement for me. *clap clap*
Dear, can u see how much i've change ever since i'm with u? Love me more please!

Really hope I can maintain this way forever but it is impossible. Fairytales doesn't exist. Wake up and face the reality. I am the most 幸福 now among all my friends but they also told me in the end they feel that the most miserable one is still me. ):
Anyway i'm prepared for it already. Just want to enjoy and create more memories as long as I can till that day comes.........

2011-04-19T12:10:00.002+08:00

I MISS U!

Thanks for the love care and concern u gave. Never ever in my life someone pamper and dote on me like the way u do. Love u dear!

2011-03-14T15:29:00.004+08:00

I just came back from India! Really miss the times there. Pretty interesting country.

Enjoyed the times when it comes to lunch or dinner. Always very scare the food will have the taste that I don't like. Till now still wondering which spice taste is that? Lol

Still miss lots and lots of things happening there. Hope I can have another trip like this soon!

2011-02-13T09:54:00.002+08:00

I'm giving up! In the first place u don't even got the rights to be so possessive. I'm trying very hard to change already. Even if I have done wrong I have already do all I can to make up. If u don't appreciate it then fuck off! _l_ U don't deserve my love at all! I won't be so stupid anymore. Living in fairytales for almost 2 months and it is time to wake up and come back to reality. We are not meant for each other in the first place.

2011-01-11T10:48:00.001+08:00

Heys! I'm back to blog again.

I'm very happy recently with my life and I hope this can go on forever.

12 days more to my birthday!

2010-12-15T13:34:00.001+08:00

Emo. I think of him again but he is too far away from me. I doubt I can see him in my entire life. I really miss u! :(

2010-12-08T11:22:00.002+08:00

I went to club on Sat again. Eric got angry this time lo. He starting to control me more and more already. ):

I'm stressing about Eric birthday present! Argh!

2010-12-03T09:50:00.003+08:00

It has been 2 weeks since I blog. Lost interest in blogging already.

Getting more and more restless nowadays. Lack of sleep. I seriously need to rest more. Feel like quitting the job at jimm's pub but they don't have enough staff. Pray hard that I can quit by end of Jan.

Recently had a bad dream. I dreamt that Eric cheated on me. Haha. The feeling is like so real lo. Scare scare leh. I know he won't do that to me cos he still treat me very nice. But recently he start to show a bit of temper to me already. Even when I play with him he will show temper lor. Don't know whether am I the one who think too much after the dream. I feel hurt and sad when he started to show his temper. Pray hard the dream won't come true ba. Pray hard pray hard.

2010-11-16T10:43:00.002+08:00

Went to PH last sat night. I was lucky to have Qing and Da jie to acc me. Sometimes I don't agree with the things Eric say me. I purposely MIA for very long was because I don't like to see the way he drink. Was damn pissed off at the later part of the night. Don't want to talk about it already.
Somehow after that night I got a weird feelings already. Hope this weird feeling won't stay for too long and I got the phobia of going to club or even ask him to come to jimm's already.

Anyway, I brought Coco to expo on Sunday. She seems like she enjoy herself a lot. I'm happy for her and she won the brightest smile competition. :) I'm proud of her.

2010-11-08T10:28:00.002+08:00

I slept for 20 hours yesterday! What a day! Haha.

Celebrated Qing birthday on Sat. Enjoyed drinking with the group. Waited for joyce to finish work and we went to Hollywood then to Shanghai dolly. Drink drank drunk! Vomitted again and again. Eric came to join us after work. :) Happy happy!

Sleep at 7 in the morning. Feeling damn terrible but luckily Eric was there to take care of me to and I feel so much better. Thanks dear! muacks.
We ordered Sakae sushi for lunch and I woke up to eat and back to sleep again. :) Went out for awhile at night to meet his friends and home sweet home.

Working tonight again. Sian sian sian.

2010-10-28T12:24:00.002+08:00

Recently things with Eric is getting complicated. Somehow feel that he doesn't care so much about this relationship cos he always choose to ignore every problem I told him. Yesterday night I finally enjoyed myself at rebel and shout my hearts out. Drink drank drunk was the most fun part. Luckily he still will care about it and buy lunch up to my house today and visit my grandma. My grandma was waiting for this day to come lor. The moment I told her that Eric is coming she was so happy and go clean up the whole house. I'm glad that Eric still somehow care about this relationship. I really hope nothing goes wrong anymore.

2010-10-14T08:54:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Perth! It is a nice place but boring at night. No night life over there. Shops all close at 5 or 6pm. I stay at home everyday at evening and sleep damn early at 10 everyday. Haha. Even mum don't believe me during my first night there when I told her i'm going to sleep.
9 days there was quite boring cos I miss my family and bf a lot. :)

I'm going back to muar for my grandpa birthday this weekend. Sian. 1 more weekend without Eric. :( Really hope he will attend so that I can bring him to show my relatives but I know work is more important. Well, I believe there are still many chances for me to show him to my relatives so it's ok.

2010-09-27T11:10:00.002+08:00

I'm flying to Perth this Sat. Don't really feel excited. Haiz.

Recently I feel that me and Eric have quite a different life. What should I do?

2010-09-21T13:23:00.002+08:00

Coco is recovering well now. I'm glad. (: 2 more days to remove the cone from her and she will be back to normal.

Finally I met Qing last Saturday at rebel. Like damn fking long nv club with her already. But then she was with Cedric. So didn't really get to enjoy with her. Haiz. Plus she left early too.

Anyway I still enjoyed myself with er jie and bei fen. Drunk like hell and vomitted till there's nothing to vomit anymore.

Life is about the same recently. Nothing new. Is just work, bf and club. Work is still ok. Need to find more sales. Really hope I can get more customer. Anyone who wanna reno their house please msg me. Thanks. :)

As for bf he is a very good bf so far. Hope he can maintain this nice forever lor. Haha. But people do change de lah. Just cherish whatever I have now first.

Well, nothing to write about anymore. Can't think of any. Will be back to blog soon!

2010-09-13T21:31:00.001+08:00

Just brought Coco to sterilize today and i'm damn sad after receiving a call from the doctor in the afternoon that she lost a lot of blood and she can't go home in the evening. Need to wait till night then can go fetch her home. We went to visit her instead and seeing her in pain and suffering I am damn hurt.

2010-09-07T09:47:00.002+08:00

Eric had an accident on Sunday night! ): Luckily he was ok. Only minor injuries. Yesterday when I see his hand I was damn sad. My heart ache. Hope nothing will happen to him anymore. I'm really worried about him whenever he go from one place to another. Haiz.

Grandma need to go and see doctor today again at Aljunied. Sian. Everytime die die need me to bring her go one. Cannot ask her precious grand daughter instead. As if I don't need to work. Sometimes I really cannot stand it. Cannot stand the way how bias grandma is. Why everytime i'm the one who put in the effort and provide her what she want but in the end she still love her precious the most. Fuck. Just bringing her to the doctor cost me alot but she still give money to her precious instead. Infront of me somemore. Can she spare a thought for my feeling? Is my hard earn money somemore lor. She think I really earn a lot? Even if it is, I have to work day and night and she don't even know how tired I am. Argh! FML

2010-09-02T11:10:00.003+08:00

Finally the job at yishun is done. No more job for me already. Sian. Anyone want to renovate your house please look for me kkz?

Nothing much to update about. My life is so far so good lor. Relationship is doing well. Work is still doing fine. Hopefully it can continue like that and i'm already satisfied with my life.

Hope my planning for the future is a success. Shall mention it out one by one when it really come true.

2010-08-28T14:38:00.000+08:00

Lazy lazy to blog le. Haha. Just update cos i'm rotting at home now.

Recently many things happen at jimm's. Haiz. Sian sian sian

2010-08-13T13:08:00.003+08:00

Got my first commission yesterday. I'm happy! :)

Enjoyed my weekend last week. Went to celebrate Cai birthday with Eric at jimm's then to kbox. Enjoyed alot. Both me and Eric was damn tired by the time we reach home. Home at 5 plus and we got to wake up damn early the next day for his friend ROM.
Woke up at 10am and prepare to go out. Was damn tired. Zzzz. Everything finish at around 3pm and realised our helmet was stolen when we reach the carpark. Damn pissed off. Somemore happen when we are damn tired. I took cab back and Eric went to buy new helmet with his friends. On the way back I realised his key pouch is with me so I don't dare to sleep even when I reach home earlier. Scare later when he come nack nobody open the door for him. Haha. Super nice gf kkz?

Slept till night and went over to find bei fen while waiting for er jie to reach singapore. Went to rebel. Had lots of fun that night. Eric seems abit unhappy cos i'm going to club. :(
Anyway, I love clubbing with my gf and sis. Had lots and lots of fun!

2010-08-04T23:19:00.002+08:00

I'm back to Singapore! :) Enjoyed myself a lot. Wasted my first day there cos we check in at 6pm. Just went to have dinner walk for awhile then back to hotel to rest. Eric wanted to go Casino but I don't like to gamble. Ask him to go himself so end up he didn't go too.

Enjoy my 3rd day shopping at KL the most. Bought lots and lots of stuff. I'm a happy girl now. :)

2010-07-31T10:36:00.003+08:00

iPhone 4 launch out yesterday. I wanted to buy it but then the queue was damn long when I reach starhub. Went for foot massage beside starhub instead. One of the staff said that he got the queue number means he is able to purchase iPhone 4 but he took the number for fun and he don't intend to buy it. Then he offer me his queue ticket but I reject. Lazy to wait. After an hour the queue number is only at 10 and his number is 42. Means have to wait for at least 2 or 3 hours I guess.

Bought lunch for Eric and I slept for the whole afternoon. Damn shiok. :) Went to jb with Eric and his friends. Their plan was to go Kulai for dinner. We meet at 10.30pm but only get to eat at 2am cos some of his friends didn't wait and the rest of us lost our way. First time travel such a long journey on bike but I find it quite fun. Finally reach singapore at 5am. Tired ttm!

Received a sms from Leong yesterday night but actually he sent to the wrong person. He wanted to send it to his girl instead. Somehow I don't feel sad or jealous seeing it already. I'm glad! :) Finally I have get over him already.

Going to Genting tomorrow and I will be back on Wed! :)

2010-07-29T11:20:00.003+08:00

Qing is on her way to my house now. :) I miss her! We use to see each other almost everyday but now we hardly can meet each other.

iPhone 4 coming out tomorrow!!!! :) I shall go get it cos I have been waiting for so long.

Yesterday the staff got scolding from boss due to some staff issue. Though I don't like it when boss get angry, i'm happy that latest we have to leave at 2am. No more worrying about staying at jimm's till 3 or later than that.

2010-07-27T12:07:00.000+08:00

5 more days and i'm going to Genting with Eric. Finally I get to take a break for a few days. I will enjoy myself ttm for these 4 days! HAHAHAHAHA.

2010-07-24T12:47:00.002+08:00

Since Thurs till now i'm quite slack for work. Half day at work then went over to accompany Eric already.

I was drunk last wed at jimm's and yesterday at Grand Hollywood. FML ): My gastric is damn uncomfortable now. Hate this feeling.

Anyway, yesterday supervisor called and told me Leong went down to Jimm's. Luckily I was not working yesterday. Then she told me that Leong want to find trouble there. I damn sian already. He still never grow up. I really give up on him. I just wish that he won't interfere with my life.

Supposed to go Atlantis yesterday to celebrate Javin's friend birthday. Then over there full house. Wasted alot of time and finally settle down at Grand Hollywood. We went in a big group. Had lots of fun but end of the night was spoil by a fight. Really hate ppl to fight and spoil the rest of our night.

It's coco birthday today. We bought a birthday cake for her and she love it. :) Still had lots of cookies and toys for her. Bringing her to East Coast park to celebrate later. She is damn xin fu to have such a good owner like me. Lol.

2010-07-20T02:06:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Eric's house not long ago. He so bad, went to work without waking me up. I only realised it when he called at 11 plus.

I think I sleep too much just now already and I cant get to sleep now. ):

I feel quite hungry when i'm on the way home and was praying hard that there will be some left over dinner at home. Indeed there was some porridge but somehow the porridge was burnt. Wonder who cook it. LOL. Couldn't care less and just eat whatever I can lo. Guess i'm too hungry already and even find the burnt porridge quite nice. Haha.

2010-07-18T09:34:00.001+08:00

Went to mango yesterday. Had fun. Drink drank drunk! Till now haven't sleep yet. Going to faint soon. How I wish I can slp now but I can't. Argh!

2010-07-17T10:34:00.003+08:00

Ever since I resign from DNK I quite enjoy the life i'm having. More slack at work. Somedays get to finish work early and start drinking at 3 plus when everyone was working. The feeling is damn shiok.

Thur supposed to meet mummy at Novena at 1pm but I heard wrongly and I reach at 11pm. Luckily Eric was there with me. We went to do body and foot massage. Haha. And had Sakae Sushi when there are no customer inside. Damn enjoying our life man! Headed to marina to meet mummy straight away. The residences is damn nice la. If only I got the money I also want to buy the house there. Damn nice view from the customer house cos he stay at 41 storey high.

I'm damn tired till I feel like fainting already. I need to sleep....

2010-07-15T02:19:00.000+08:00

It's pissing me off!!!!!

2010-07-13T00:10:00.002+08:00

I failed my TP today! Quite sad cos of my parallel parking. I was too nervous and the first thing I kena tested parallel parking already and I took quite a long time to do it. If not for the parallel parking I could have passed. My demerit points quite little only. Haiz.

2010-06-29T11:22:00.001+08:00

fking tired!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dbl o last sat. The music sucks. No more dbl o next time.

TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED.

I'M TIRED TTM!

Really need a break.

2010-06-24T10:29:00.002+08:00

I'm back to work at jimm's! :) Finally I don't have to go home drunk every night. Still prefer jimm's cos dun need to drink so much.

First 2 days at work is still ok. Quite bored sometimes but relax. Hoepfully I won't have any problem working there this time round.

Going to help out in the hash this sat then maybe to dbl o. Didn't club for a long time already. Can't wait for this sat to come.

Damn tired now. Zzzz.

2010-06-21T11:39:00.003+08:00

I'm in a good mood today!!!!

Going to leave DNK soon! Hurray! After 2 years plus i'm finally leaving. So sick of working here already. Office job are damn boring although it is quite slack la. But I really dun like boring job.

Secondly, i'm not working tonight! Double happiness! Can get to rest for a day. (: Rest for liver for a day too! Will be going to jimm's to help on this tues and wed. Happy lah! Miss working there. The only sad things is Qing won't be working with me. ):

Without fail, I vomit everytime when I work at night. Same goes on sat. Vomited again. Argh! Why do I have such a lousy gastric. hate it!
Anyway, the pub was raid by police on sat. Happy cos we get to rest while waiting for the police to go off. How I wish the police will stay there for the whole night. Lol.
Going to quit my night job soon. Hope I can find a better place to work next time that doesn't require to drink so much with good boss and staff. Haha.

Suddenly started to miss clubbing again cos I didn't club for very long already.
Qing, shall we? Haha.

2010-06-14T12:24:00.002+08:00

Went to sembawang park on friday to attend Leong's birthday. Had fun and enjoyed. His friends keep on saboing us for us to patch back but I never agree.

Sleep for the whole sat and went to work at night. The moment I reach there kena ask to finish 3 glass martell. Still asked to mix with beer. Crazy. Then boss tell me tonight work until 4am. Must slowly slowly drink. Trying to avoid as many drinks as I can but hard to cos it's sat. Sian.
Boss was drunk and ask me how much can I still drink cos he need my help as he cmi already. I tah alot of glass for him then he ask i'm ok anot. Of cos not ok lor. Vomitted 2 times in the toilet and go back to drink again. Nightmare for me. Until 3 plus I totally stop drinking cos I also cmi already but I still hardworking leh. Still can clear the table, sweep the floor all that. Haha. Eric came to fetch me and he can see that i'm drunk again. Vomitted when I reach home but didn't fall down this time. Haha. Lucky. Think I was too drunk and complain all my problems to him. So sad to see him cry. Didn't know he also so emotional one leh. Haha.

Sleep for the whole of sunday. The only times when I wake up is eat and bathe. Shiok. Not so tired now. Finally I get a good rest. :)

2010-06-11T11:09:00.002+08:00

Been working at boat quay for 2 days. 1st day at work sucks like hell. is totally so unlike jimm's. Boss or the staff there nv teach me anything or tell me what to do at all. Not like jimm's where the staff will teach us what to do. Everyone there just do their own things. All i did was just being ask by boss to go to the table to drink and drink. Even when I was damn high and drunk already I still need to act normal to show that i'm ok. Boss still ask me to help him drink. Mindset is damn important lah. I vomited once in the toilet and act normal to go back to drink again. Can't wait to finish work. None of the waitress help to keep the glass and everything. Nobody care whether u are alright anot. No teamwork at all. I still prefer jimm's. The moment I finish work and see Eric outside, I feel like hugging him to cry. I told him if half way through the journey home if I tap him means I want to vomit le. Manage to control till I reach home. Fell down at the toilet. Don't want to let Eric see me in this state but I cannot tahan already. Think he also feel heart pain for me. Haiz. If not for the money I won't want to torture myself like that. Had nightmares that i'm still drinking with those customer. Keep on tah and tah. Didn't sleep well due to the nightmares.
Wake up in the morning and still feel very unwell. Took mc. Vomited again. The feeling sucks. Eric ask me not to work anymore when he see me like that. ):
Went back to sleep till evening and chatted with Qing. Really miss her alot. I feel like going over to find her and hug her and complain everything to her. Miss those times working at jimm's with her. And I know how worried she is when i'm working at boat quay. There's one thing i'm proud abt myself is that I really can take care of myself well over there no matter how much I drink and learn to be more independent. Realize that i've been relying too much on Qing during the times at jimm's. Now I understand how xin ku she is.

The thought of going back to work at night yesterday totally turns me off. For the first time I fear so much in drinking. I feel like vomiting whenever I smell alcohol. Yesterday still ok. I learn how to siam and gei siao already. Can say luckily got one table of customer are very nice ppl who wont force waitress to drink. And cos they are boss friend and very good drinker, boss wont say anything if the waitress sit at their table for too long. I spend most of the time sitting at that table cos I don't want to be like the day before. I find that I drink very little yesterday already but I still got the vomiting feeling but I keep on controlling and try not to vomit.
Had lots of beer yesterday instead. But most of the glass was being ask to bottoms up. Still had martell with beer. Can't take it. So for the rest of the night I try to find other things to do like washing the glass, refilling the mixer and ice etc. Think boss think that I didn't do a good job yesterday cos I drink quite little. But for me I think it is alot already. Somemore I didn't eat much. Bought some sandwich there but there's no time for me to eat. Really miss working at jimm's alot. The customer, boss and staff there are much more better.

Kena road block yesterday when Eric was sending me home. I was so scare that he will fail the test cos he got drink a bit at his friends ROM. Luckily he pass if not I will feel damn guilty cos he come and fetch me from work then kena caught.

I'm so glad that I don't have to work tonight. :) I want to take a rest. Seeing alcohol now makes me want to puke.

2010-06-09T13:24:00.002+08:00

Haven't been going to club for 3 weeks already. Great improvement! :)

Went to jimm's pub then to 88 with kor and one china girl. This is the first time i can click so well with a china girl. Normally i dun like china girl. Anyway, I enjoyed myself that night.

Went to raining bar on sat. Enjoyed. Vomitted. Hate it. Should get used to it already. Haha.

Suppose to meet gigglets on sunday but was not feeling well. Gastric was damn uncomfortable. Sorry gigglets. ):

Exam on monday. I went in for 45 mins and came out from the exam hall. Went to the battle box with Eric, Qing and Cedric in the afternoon. Enjoyed myself ttm! Hope there is such outing again next time! I didn't go out in the afternoon for a long time already. Haha. Can't believe that I actually survived under the hot sun. Thank god I didn't melt. Lol.
Movie at amk hub at night. Horror movie. "-_- A nightmare on the Elm street. Overall still not bad. Supper at mac and home sweet home.

Going to start work at qool bar tonight at boat quay. Hope the staff there are all nice working ppl. Hopefully there will be no prob with the staff and bosses there. Really dun like to go to a new environment to work. Sian sian sian.

2010-06-05T19:03:00.000+08:00

Alone at home tends to emo. Haiz...

2010-05-31T11:27:00.002+08:00

Went to jimm's pub for sophia last day on friday. I enjoyed! Very long don't have the tipsy feeling already.
I'm glad that H went down too!

Celebrate mummy birthday on sat. Went for dinenr then k session. Find it a bit boring and also partly cos i'm tired. Finish singing at 3 plus and we went to woodlands waterfront for awhile. Such a boring sat to end with. ):

Woke up early in the morning for breakfast with mummy and sis. Went to find Eric after that. Didn't manage to study much and my exam is tmr. So sian. haiz. wasting my money away.

Not much mood to blog. Might not be updating my blog anymore unless there is something for me to update. Life is so boring......

2010-05-28T14:27:00.002+08:00

Went to Xiang Long birthday yesterday at New Majestic Hotel. Ended quite late at 12 plus then we went to neil rd to drink. Quite high yesterday. Very long didn't have this feeling le. Haha. Enjoyed myself ttm!

Going down to jimm's tonight cos it is sophia last day. I hope i'm going to enjoy tonight! :)

2010-05-24T16:15:00.002+08:00

Leong came to fetch me after work on friday. Went to his house cos he said I didn't go to his house for quite a long time already. Going to that place really damn sian. See his mum even more sian. Zzzz.
He is so good that night. Still cook for me to eat and serve me. He still wash up everything for me after that. All I did was just sit at the living room to watch tv and eat. Lol.
After he went to work, I stay at home and waited for Sam and da jie to come and fetch me. Went to Neil rd to drink. Eric came and surprise me. :) Suppose to go there with Kor but he was the latest to reach. It was still early when neil rd close and we went to Kbox. Home in the morning and grandma act like a kid. I don't know what did I do to offend her.
Wanted to sleep when I reach home but was asked to do this and that. Pissed! Only manage to sleep at 8 plus.

Went to butter fac on sat. Enjoyed myself to the max! Didn't had so much fun for a long long time. But I still find last time more fun when I club with Qing.
Home in the morning again and grandma act like a kid again. Damn pissed already but I still keep quiet and remain very calm. Haha. I got good temper.

My family members are fucking bias. They only like the smarter one.
Just because I didn't get into the express stream during sec 1 all of them treat me like i'm not part of the family.
Just because I went out to work much more earlier than both my sis all of them treat me like ATM.
Just because I went out till late night everytime all of them think that I am a bad girl.
Ever since da jie move back to stay u all treat her like princess and treat me like a slave.
Life sucks! Why am I the one who always get blame for nothing?
Since u look down on me that I work in a pub before then don't fucking take money from me anymore! Go take money from both your precious that are Diploma or Degree holder. Degree holder when she didn't even give u a fucking single cents before.

Daddy is moving back again during Jun or July. Wonder what will happen again this time? Haha. My house is so damn happening. Everyday also got free drama to watch!

2010-05-21T09:43:00.002+08:00

It's friday again! Finally finally! This week like past so slow like that. Sian TTM! :(

Went to watch Once a gangster at marina square with Leong yesterday but we left halfway during the show due to some quarrel. Fuck it!

Meet Js at night cos I don't feel like sleeping and I felt better after there's someone to talk to. Home at 4 plus and i'm fking tired now. Zzzzz.

Butter fac today and tomorrow? Hahaha. Shiok.

2010-05-17T11:45:00.002+08:00

Leong came to fetch me after work on friday. Went home to rest and he went off at 10pm cos he need to work. I went to neil road to find kor to drink. No mood to drink tat day. Eric came to acc me when he needs to work. I feel bad. ):
Recently not really in the mood to drink. Drink after few glasses I stop drinking already. After neil road kor send me to bishan to meet sam from prawning. It is my first time going for prawning. Quite fun, but I find it cruel. Those prawn like very poor thing. We stay there till morning and I was very tired. Fell asleep when the guys are talking about their ns life. Damn boring conversation. Zzzzz.
Mummy called in the morning and ask me to buy breakfast home. Dotz. Home at 9 plus. Bought breakfast for them but forget to buy for myself. Too tired already.
Went home to bathe and Sam came to fetch me and da jie to bring coco out for swimming. We damn hiong. Don't need to sleep at all. Haha. Coco is so cute. Very scare when we put her into the pool.
Went home during the afternoon and kor ask me to go JB to accompany him to pump petrol. I was super blur that time already. End up I didn't go. Sleep for 2 hours and wake up for buddhist class. Kor came to fetch me after class and we went to rebel. Qing went too. Happy!!!
Overall still ok la. But didn't really enjoy. Still prefer the time clubbing with Qing before I work at Jimm's.

Breakfast with mummy at cwp on sunday. Tired ttm!
Meet Leong when he finish work in the afternoon and went to jimm's pub to look for Eddie at night. Was feeling quite down for don't know what reason. Home at 3 plus.

Sleep for less then 5 hours during this weekend and I look like a zombie now.

Stupid colleague change the radio channel to FM93.3 again. Argh! Fucking hate to listen to chinese song cos it reminds me of him.

Can't wait for the day to come. 105 days to go.

2010-05-12T14:05:00.002+08:00

Receive a call from a colleague just now. He playing prank with me. Damn funny. I am so lousy that I can't recognize his voice. Lol.

Boring day at work again. I wanna resign soon. August faster come please?

Went to butter factory last sat. Luckily no drama that night.

I think I got phobia of going to the dance floor already. ):

Bei fen have decided to stop clubbing. Da jie somehow get sick of it already too. I'm glad and happy! :)

Going to watch basketball match tonight with da jie and Javin. :)

Every year at this period of time I think of u more. Haiz.

2010-05-08T16:07:00.002+08:00

I watch the back up plan yesterday with sam, er jie and jh. Nice and funny show!

Went to neil rd to drink after the movie. Had difficulties going to the place cos we lost our way. Took more than half an hour to reach from PS to Neil rd. Lol.

Qing join us. Had lots of fun. I enjoyed a lot yesterday but things that happen outside raining bar sucks ttm. Haiz. I really don't know what to do. Things that I can say abt my sis I already say. I don't understand is there a need to behave in this manner when u fall out of love? For sure will be sad, but not till this extent I guess.

Do u know that people around u who concern for both of u are very heartpain to see u both become like that.

Hopefully tonight will be a good night.

2010-05-06T11:04:00.002+08:00

KL trip is fun. How I wish to turn back the time to last friday. I'm so not in the mood for work.

Anyway, getting more and more unhappy working here and i've decided to resign.

Planning to resign on end of July and going to work for my mum on August but mummy ask me to work till August and help her during Sep instead. Sian. 4 more months to go. Zzzzz. Can't wait for the day to come.

Life is still the same boring for me everyday.

I got improvement cos I don't drink so often already. (:

Going to study hard for this month for my exam. Hope that I can make it this time. Pray hard pray hard.

2010-04-29T21:47:00.002+08:00

finally i'm going to KL for a short holiday!

Well, hhpy say my blog is so dead. Haha. Nothing much to update. My life is back to what I used to do before i'm working at Jimm's pub. Drinking and clubbing. But getting from bad to worst now. In the past I only go club during weekends. Now I go drinking almost everyday with bei fen. Die. Lack of sleep. I go to work everyday with a zombie face. Got to change back to healthy lifestyle soon.

Ladies night at rebel yesterday. I enjoyed myself. It's been so long since I went to ladies night. Drink drank drunk everyday.

Going to sleep now.........

2010-04-21T20:16:00.002+08:00

Very unhappy at work recently. I guess is because of the new colleague. Just don't really like her. Especially listening to 93.3fm everyday which makes me even more unhappy. The reason why I don't listen to chinese songs anymore cos it makes me think of him. I'm trying my best to forget him.

Really not in the mood now. blog some other days.

2010-04-19T00:33:00.002+08:00

Been drinking since wednesday. Went to jimm's with leong to drink.

Went to boat quay with Bei fen on thursday. Nick came to join us. Thursday is a damn unlucky day. Had to trouble bei fen to come to paya lebar to find me. Hate the stupid rain. Anyway, I enjoyed on thursday.

Was late for work on friday. Reach office at 11 plus. Damn pai sei. Haha. Bei fen came to my office after work. Waited for er jie and da jie to reach and we went for dinner.

Went to boat quay to drink again and to rebel after that. I'm glad that Qing join us. Haha. Thought she won't come and join us cos she said she is sick of club and pub. We had 10 ppl that night. I love clubbing in big groups. Fun!

Meet Bei fen on sat and we went to peace centre to find andrew. Find it quite weird for 2 girls to go to a nightclub. left after 1 hour and we went to rebel to find Eric. Drink, drank, drunk again. Haha. But i'm not drunk lah. I find that i'm wasting alcohol.

Eric send me home and I fell asleep again. Zzzz.

Meet Leong just now and I sleep for the whole day and I couldn't sleeep now. Zzz. Very awake now lor. How? Still got work tomorrow. Die.

2010-04-14T10:10:00.003+08:00

Started my first day at work doing shots promo at Arena last friday. I think i'm not suitable for the job. Walking around the club for 4 hours without resting. My legs are damn tired.
Dan and Qing came to find me after work. Seriously I love them so much to send me there and Qing keep on asking me to take care of myself during work. I miss working at Jimm's with her and she will take care of me when i'm feeling tipsy and help me to drink with customer.
Da jie came to support me and bought 1 shots from me. I love her too!
We went to Balestier to had our supper.

Meet Leong on Saturday and we went to esplanade. First time going there with him. Sit there and chit chat for awhile then we go home. So lame lor. Go all the way there for half an hour to talk. Lol.
Saw da jie at home and ask her whether she want to go down to boat quay to join er jie and bei fen. Cos got someone to share midnight charge with me cheaper. Haha. Enjoyed myself! Drink, drank, drunk.

Stay at home for the whole day on sunday. Accompany mummy at home and Leong came to find me at night. Mummy is so funny. Ask Leong to fetch her to 214 cos she is lazy to walk. Leong feel very pai sei to fetch mummy there.
We went out for dinner then his brother got things to settle and ask him to go also. Childish! End up we only meet for dinner and go home.

Paper on Monday and I only went in to the exam hall for like half an hour and come out already cos I never study at all. Haha.
Eric came to find me and we went to Desker rd to acc cai to buy suit. Waited for bloody long and finally they are done after hours.
Meet Bei fen at night at Lot 1 and have a nice chat with her.

I am damn unlucky this morning. Argh. Or maybe it is a good thing also. Haha.

I serisouly hate guys who are irresponsible and selfish. Damn pissed off with him. Only think of his own studies and career and money. Not even a concern from him when he called. Only ask me to help him to check the things that he want. Idiot. Bloody irritating.

Oh, this morning while going to work, I saw Jian's friend. Damn suay.

2010-04-06T14:02:00.003+08:00

I love my long weekend!!!!

Went to Jimm's pub on thursday night as it was Qing last day at work. That night dunno whether want to get angry or laugh lor.

Didn't manage to get any sleep as I forget I had make appointment with mummy to do our hair and I thought I can sleep on friday since it is a holiday. Mummy called me in the morning and say that she is waiting for me at home. Rush home and she went out already. "-_-
Went to Jurong to find mummy and I reborn my hair. Mummy pay for me. Haha. That's the motive that I want to go down and find her. :P
Reach home at night and I was damn tired. Fell asleep till Leong reach my house I also refuse to wake up. Haha. He was damn bored and went home after half an hour cos I don't want to accompany him.

Dan call me in the morning on saturday and we bring Coco out for breakfast. Wanted to bring her to Sembawang park for a walk but Dan need to work. ):
Went to Rebel at night with Qing and friends. Enjoyed! Spend quite alot that night. Cos cannot everytime let them pay for the drinks. Will pai sei also lah. I still know how to "zi dong" :P
Da jie suddenly feel giddy when we were going home. Suppose to meet Eric after club. In the end he ask me to send Da jie home after seeing da jie in this state. He send us home cos he scare I cannot handle alone when I reach home. Talk to him till 7 in the morning and I went to sleep.
Sunday is my sleeping day again. Went to find Leong and sleep till evening and went for dinner and back home to sleep again.

Leong didn't come and fetch me yesterday after work. He is damn lazy and give me excuses that it is raining and say he will fetch me from Woodlands instead. Damn ass lor.
Went to Jimm's pub yesterday night with Leong. It has been quite some time since we had heart to heart talk. Yesterday is a good good night. Love him lots.

Driving lesson tonight again. Zzz. hope I can get my licence soon and don't need to go for any lesson anymore. Sick of going for lesson.

2010-04-01T10:15:00.002+08:00

Tmr is public holiday!!!! I love holiday!!!!

Tuesday after meeting Leong, I went to amk kbox to find Eric. The staff there organize it. We took the biggest room and there were a lot of people. They drink like crazy till almost everyone there was drunk at the end. The moment Eric was drunk then all his friend bully me and ask me to drink. I vomit alot of times and I hate the feeling. Home at 5 plus and I vomit again.

Was late for work yesterday. Got warning from boss this time. I still feel very unwell in the morning due to hangover. Vomit in the office and I can't concentrate during work till Ken reach office and settle the account together with me. Finally account is done. I'm happy. Haha. Now only need to settle GST then I can slowly complete all my work. Happy happy!

Eric send me to work this morning. Save cab fare for today!!! Haha.

Exam is only 2 weeks away and I have not start my revision. Still thinking whether I should go for the paper anot. Sian sian sian. Lynn say she is not going for the paper but I find it a waste of money. Haiz.

Can't wait for 30 Apr. Going for holiday!!!!!

2010-03-29T18:07:00.002+08:00

I'm home early today cos I share cab with Jo to go home. Was damn unlucky that I board the $5 cab. Plus it's peak hour. The meter jump 30 cents instead of 20 cents. Jo blame me for flagging that cab. Wtf. I treat him for dinner cos I feel bad lah. Reach home and its $40. more expensive than mid night charge lor. Heartpain lah. I swear I won't flag that cab anymore.

2010-03-29T15:56:00.010+08:00

I DON'T LIKE HHPY!!!!!

Haha. Kidding la hhpy. Who ask u to neglect me when u got ur new hhpy for the last few weeks. I'm damn bored at work when u are not online. :( I still like u ok? :P

Last wed I quarrel with Leong again. This time over something stupid. He was angry with me because i'm going to Genting with my sis and cousin and he doesn't allow me to go. I couldn't sleep after I had a bad dream and woke up at 1 plus. Went out to find a friend after his work and stay at the pub to talk and I feel much more better. He send me to work in the morning and I was fking tired. Look like a zombie during work.

Went to Jimm's to find Qing at night to talk to her. Then leong become ridiculous again. Quarrel again and he give in this time. :)

Sis wanted to go Dbl o on sat cos it was the last night at Dbl o. Reach there at 9.30 and the queue was damn long. Queue for 1 hr and we give up. Qing suggest butter fac and we agree. Enjoyed my night with them. Luckily Qing was there so that I get to enjoy. Went to sing and went home in the morning. Waited for cab for very long and er jie suggest to take train instead but we were already very tired.

Leong finish work in the afternoon and he came over to find me. Went to gary's grave to pray with his brothers then to sembawang park to look for er jie to bring coco out for a walk. Brought coco to jimm's and everyone seems to like her. :) Went to bed very early yesterday but I still feel tired this morning. Zzzz.

Took cab to work and I realised I forget to bring my work to the office which I had brought home to do last friday. No choice. Nothing to do today cos I everything is at home. So I just slack at the office and having red wine with my colleague. Shiok and relaxing day at work today. Haha. But tomorrow going to rush work again. Sian.

2010-03-23T10:33:00.003+08:00

I'm not done with my work yet. Argh! I stay in the office till 9pm yesterday to do as much as I can. Leong was so nice. He bought dinner to my office for me and help me to do my work. But he damn bhb and say that he is a nice bf. Haha.

After work we went to Jimm's pub cos I want to thank him for helping me and we were too stress with work. Enjoyed myself. Love him to the max.

Weekend was ok for me. Stay at Leong house on friday. I sleep damn early at 9 plus. Next morning hear his mum kpkb again. She can't stop nagging for a day. Damn pissed off. Still say I sleep till so late and ask me to wake up. Asshole. My mum never even do that to me. Then Leong quarrel with his mum again. I'm glad that everytime when his mum nags at me he will stand at my side and defend for me. But sometimes I feel that he scold his mum until too overboard and I will ask him to stop quarreling with his mum.
Pack all of my stuff and bring it home cos I told Leong I don't want to go to his house anymore la. Can't stand his mum. Can see that he is very sad and I feel bad. So I told him I won't stay there only but still will go then he agree. Purposely bring it home cos I know his mum will be damn kpo and go to his room to see whether I got bring my things home or just say say only.
Leong is finding places to stay and move out. Hope he will find a room soon. But hard to find a place near my house. :(

Leong didn't go to work on Saturday and we stay at home for the whole day to watch tv. Feel much better at my own house. At least I can do whatever I want.
After Leong went home I went to meet Qing. Went to Club Rachada with her friends. Drink drank drunk. Not drunk la. Lol. went off at 4 and headed to clarke quay to find eric. Sing and drink at his pub till morning and home sweet home. Enjoyed my night.

Meet Eric at night and went down to jimms to find Qing. Left after a mug of beer and meet his friends. Went to Cine to watch kidnapper. Wasted a lot of time there. Wanted to watch 11.45pm show but only left with 1st 2 rows. So we went to ps but the cinema was close. Went back to cine to watch 1.45am show. Waited for 2 hours plus for the movie. Damn tired lah. Plus I don't know any of his friends. So I feel kinda bored while waiting for the movie to start. Eric send me home after the movie cos I still got to work the next morning and I keep complaining that i'm tired.

Going to Genting on 30 April. Looking forward.......

2010-03-22T12:21:00.002+08:00

After settling all the GST return, audit for YE 2009 and IR8A i'm going to resign!!!!!! Argh!

2010-03-19T10:16:00.002+08:00

I took leave yesterday cos coco had an appointment with the vet. I still wake up early even though i'm not working. Mummy wake me up at 8 plus. Damn irritating lah and I cannot get back to sleep anymore.

Accompany Leong for breakfast and we rest at my house till 3 plus then bring coco to the vet. On call cab but no driver want to fetch coco. Waited for 15 mins and finally got a driver willing to fetch her. Went down to the carpark the driver seems unhappy. Dotz.
Consultation cost 85 bucks. plus cab fare cost 100 plus already. Heartpain. :( Doctor still ask me to do a blood test for coco which cost $275 so I choose to let her go on medication instead. Hope nothing happen to her.

Went to jimms yesterday night to find Qing. Need to cut down on my expenses already. Cannot keep on drinking everyday. Leong also said we always complain got no money but still spend it on unnecessary things.

Went back to Leong house after that. Hate to see his parents. Without fail, they nag everyday. And everytime I call them they happy happy then respond if not don't bother to respond. Damn rude lor. Still love my family the most. At least they are not so rude to my friends or bf.

Lots of work to be done. Deadline is next monday. Somehow I know I can't finish by next Monday but I convince Ken that I can. I wonder what will he do this time if I can't finish my Monday. Lol. Really getting bored working here. In fact I hate to work everywhere. If only I can don't work and still got income. How nice would it be?

Leong is working on sat again. Wonder where should I go? Haha. Boring life.

2010-03-17T11:02:00.002+08:00

I don't feel like working. :(

As usual was late for work and cab to office. Boss called when I was on the way to work and I told him I reach already. Lol. But he know that I haven't reach yet.

Work is quite interesting yesterday cos boss give me something new to do. Checking the other company account that they are buying over. Though there is a lot of work, at least is not the same thing that I do everyday. Much more interesting.

Leong bring me to Katong for body massage yesterday. He waited for me for 75 mins. So nice of him. I didn't expect that he will wait and never kpkb cos he is always very impatient.
Had dinner at Sembawang shopping centre. Saw Eddie with Joyce family.
We went to Jimms after that and they were there also. Had a small argument with Leong but we were ok after awhile.

Life is getting more boring. Haiz.

Oh ya, H is back from china. Miss him.

2010-03-16T10:23:00.002+08:00

Meet Qing and Edwin together with Leong last friday. Initially wanted to go Balestier to eat Bak kuteh but the queue was quite long so we went to have kfc instead. Lol. Go all the way to Balestier to eat kfc. "-_-
Went to Bishan Park to drink but the music was damn annoying so we left after a jug of beer. Went to Sembawang Park to chit chat and relax. Leong always complain that he is tired when we go out. So sian.

Brought Coco out to club4paws on Saturday. She don't like to swim. Haha. Wasted our money. Let her run around inside the club but she is scare of other dogs and just hide under our chair. Play until 5 and home sweet home. She is more active at home. Lol. Next time just let her stay at home will do. Don't need to waste my time to bring her out.

Meet Qing at night and went to central for dinner. Meet Jason to Nana. Know a new girl. Initially she was ok but suddenly she become emo then me and Qing can't be bothered with her anymore. 2 of Jason friend join us. Nana is not fun. Not my type. Anyway, I enjoyed. Put Eric aeroplane again for the 3rd time. Lol.
We went to Geylang for supper. Had mee sua. Not nice one. Shows that i'm not drunk. Lol.

Leong lie to me that he is not working on Sunday. Wanted to meet him then he says he is working. So I sleep till evening and went to Cwp with mummy. End up Leong want to meet me but I don't want to meet him already. Quarrel again. Sian 1/2.
Meet Qing for awhile then she went off and I waited for Eric alone. Went to a HK cafe at Upp east coast. I didn't know we can talk until so long. After that we went to SengKang to meet his friend for supper. 3/4 of my energy gone. Was very tired. Eric keep on asking me to take mc on Monday. "-_-
Finally went off at 4 plus and home at 5. Only 2 hours for me to sleep. Eric give me morning call but I went back to sleep. Cab to work. Another 23 bucks gone. Look like a zombie during work and cant wait to finish work.
Meet Leong after work. We went for dinner and back to his home. We paste all our picture in his room wall together. So sweet. :) Wanted to watch tv but was too tired. Haha.

Cab to work this morning again cos Leong say he didn't sleep until late late for a very long time and say he come and fetch me after work.
Need to save up this month cos I don't have extra income already but I haven't cut down my expenses. Got to find a night job soon but i'm having exam next month. :(

Coco vomitted this morning again. I think she is sick but she is still so hyper active. So i'm not sure whether she is really sick or not. How?

2010-03-11T15:35:00.002+08:00

Watch Happy go lucky with Leong yesterday. Not a nice movie. :(
Went back to his house after movie. We wanted to paste back all our photo in his room but due to my laziness we never paste those photo back. Haha.

Leong wake up early this morning to send me to work. :) Love him!

Work sucks today. I do nicely for boss already but he don't believe. Still want to ask xp for this and that. Next time don't ask me to do then!!!!!

Hhpy got new hhpy already and he ignore me. He is such an ass. I also want to look for new hhpy and ignore him. Humph!

2010-03-10T10:27:00.002+08:00

Don't know why I feel tired today when I sleep early last night. Getting more and more lazy to work. :(

Leong came to fetch me from work yesterday. It was raining suddenly and we were both drench. When we reach Woodlands, got a driver damn gl. I think he purposely drive very fast and the water on the road just splash on us. They still laugh somemore. So I think they did it on purpose. Leong was pissed off and horn at the driver and point him middle finger. Normally I will scold Leong when he do this but this time I think the driver deserve it. Reach Leong house and I keep on laughing. He says i'm crazy. Kena splash still very happy. Lol. Order pastamania delivery for dinner and I click at the wrong order online. I didn't realised till they send to us then we know. So I called them and ask whether they can change for us. Luckily can. haha. Damn hungry lor. Only get to eat our dinner at 10 plus when we order at 8 plus.

Leong is working today so I cab to work. Heavy jam due to the rain. Cost me 23 bucks but the driver charge me 20 bucks only. Nice driver. :)

2010-03-09T12:00:00.002+08:00

Went to rebel on sat. More enjoyable than ph. Haha. But I don't enjoy as much as I used to.
Saw Leong when going out and he was angry with me but things are ok for us now.
Went to Jimms to wait for Dan. Stupid supervisor give fucking attitude. Hate to see her face. I went over to talk to boss about what happen to me and leong and I feel much more better. Dan came over to play 1 round of pool and we went to rebel to meet qing. Love clubbing with her. :)
Vomitted while on the way home. Asked Dan to stop the car at expressway. Haha. And I knock out the moment I reach home.

Sleep for the whole day on Sunday. Family dinner at night and Leong came to fetch me when he finish work. We went to yishun dam to talk. He is sweet that night and give in a lot to me. Really hope he mean what he says.

Took half day yesterday. Accompany Leong to ICA to collect his passport and finally I change my IC address. Leong is damn cute. He look so happy when he collected his passport and go to malaysia immediately.
Meet Da jie after work to pass her the red wine and we went to Jimms. the supervisor treat us as if we are invisible. So me and Leong went off to another place to drink instead. Really fucking hate the supervisor more and more. I wish to give her a slap on her face especially when I see her fucking face. How I wish boss was there yesterday and I will sure purposely shout out loud how she treat us to let him hear. Initially I was ok cos I understand she is busy. But then I saw her coming out but didn't bother to serve us and walk in again when she see us. What kind of fucking service is that? Last time during work she still say during meeting that our service not good that's why got complain from customer that we got no service. As if she got very good service like that. knn.

Went to Leong house after that to watch incredible tales and we order mac delivery. Finally I have some peace at his house cos his parents went to malaysia. :)

2010-03-04T23:17:00.002+08:00

I'm bored. Just came back home after a movie with Leong. We went to watch Being Human. Not very nice but still ok la. Came back after movie cos we got nowhere to go. Somemore he never ride bike today cos it was raining just now.

Feeling bored after not working at night. Last time Leong always complain that we got not much time for each other cos i'm working at night. Now i'm not working at night already but we got no place to go. Then he is working whole day on weekends. Wth lor. He is just selfish.

2010-03-02T11:15:00.003+08:00

Wasted my Sat at ph. Feel bored there. Not in the mood to club. I guess i'm not as enthu as last time at club already. Maybe cos after i'm with Leong I seldom go club and that's why i'm not so into clubbing already. I don't enjoy as much as last time anymore. Sian. I want to be like the past. :(

Finish work early yesterday and went down to jimms while waiting for leong to finish work. Somehow I started to miss the times when I was working there. If the supervisor is not there, I think I will enjoy more.

My life is so boring nowadays. Not happening already. Also very long never quarrel with Leong already. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? Haha. Leong says that he feel weird that we so long never quarrel with each other already. lol.
He is being more understanding already. So I guess that's the reason why we never quarrel lah. Partly also cos i'm not working at pub already. That's why he won't feel so insecure.

I don't feel so tired after I have stop working at night. More energetic now. Had a good rest for 1 month already.

2010-02-23T15:13:00.003+08:00

5 more days and CNY will be over. This year CNY didn't receive a lot of red packet. I guess as we are getting older we don't enjoy CNY so much already. This year also didn't win a lot in gambling. But my luck this year is better than last year. :)

Went for company dinner on Wednesday night then to neil rd to drink. Qing came to find me and suddenly feel like clubbing so we went to rebel at 2am. Haha. Didn't really enjoy. :(
While drinking at neil rd I keep on pestering Ken for off day on Thurs and he ask me to start work on Monday instead. Lol. What a good boss I had. :)

Leong was quite nice to me suddenly on friday. He called me early in the morning and asked me whether I want any breakfast and he deliver to me while he was working and he find replacement to cover his night shift for him and he say he want to bring me out. I was very happy and I told mummy. Mummy said he must have done something wrong on the previous night. Haha. So bad.
We went to Sentosa to take a look at night. Nothing much to see. Quite boring and we went for our dinner at vivo and went to Bukit batok jimm's pub to sing. Enjoyed myself even though there are only 2 of us.

Stay at home on Saturday and watch fu gui men together with mummy for the whole day till Leong finish work and I went over to find him. Meet Qing at night. Had durian at Geylang and went to ECP to talk. Had fun.

Had family dinner at novena on Sunday. Went to play wii after that and I went to jimm's cos a customer ask me to go down. I didn't know Qing was working and I called her and ask her whether she want to go down or not. Lol. Was very tired already but Qing was hungry and we went for supper. Went home quite late and I reach office only at 11am on Monday. Haha.

Yesterday Leong fetch me from Ubi after my driving lesson and we went to summer breeze for dinner and drink. I love the place there. Very relaxing and I feel so sweet with him.

2010-02-16T02:29:00.002+08:00

This year CNY is quite boring. I feel like returning to Singapore now. :( 2 more days to go... ...

2010-02-14T03:38:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year!

I just came back home. :) Didn't have a good celebration for valentine's day this year. Well, but at least I get to see Leong.

Was having half day at work yesterday but waited for Edwin to finish work so it is still the same whether it is half day or not. Went to Toa payoh to meet Edwin and waited for him for half an hour. So I went to library while waiting for him. Wanted to go Orchard but end up we bought our present at Toa Payoh. Both of us bought a Guess watch for our partner. He is super sweet, bought things that concern the one he love. If only Leonhg is so sweet like him I will be super touch. Haha.
Yesterday was the 1st time I sit Edwin's bike. I wonder how come people dare to sit his bike. He ride damn fast lor. I thank god when I reach my block. Damn scary lah.

Went over to find Leong when he finish work and pass the present to him. I'm happy that he like it. Pei him through the night as I was too tired and lazy to go home. Consider an advance valentine's celebration lah. Lol.

This morning the moment I reach home mummy ask me to go out to buy things. So last min. I was so tired already. :(

Daddy came back for reunion dinner and surprisingly he gave us red packet this year. So unlike him. Haha. I think he strike 4D or something and he is in a good mood.

Well, i'm going back to Malaysia tomorrow and only be back on 17 feb. :)

2010-02-12T10:30:00.003+08:00

Finally today is the last day of work and there will be long weekend. :) Initially Ken said we only start work on 22 feb. Then suddenly change to 18 feb. Sian 1/2.
This year cny damn sian la. Cos it falls on a sunday. Company close late and start work early.

Yesterday driving lesson sucks la. In fact all e lesson sucks. I feel that I sucks at driving. Everytime the beginning of the lesson still ok one. After that I will get quite sian and impatient and I can't concentrate in driving already.
After lesson I went to Marina Square to meet Qing and had pizza hut for dinner with her. Walk around to shop for valentine's day present. Couldn't get anything. Went to Millenia walk to have a drink. Ask Leong to come and fetch me but he don't want. He said is too far. Idiot lah. Saw LH with his gf. Lol. Quite shock. Haha. Cab to woodgrove for supper with Qing and Edwin. They accompany me to walk home. So nice of them. Haha. Somemore it's damn far. Leong was angry cos he said i went home late. Saw his dad drinking downstairs my block coffeeshop. So suay. Later complain to Leong again.

Received a sms from a customer from Jimm's yesterday. He know i'm not working there and what happen. Must be that pu bor tell her things about me again. Soon, the whole of jimm's customer will know already lah. Might as well just ask her to post it on the newspaper so that she don't need to repeat the same things so many times. "-_-

This morning Muthu came to Woodlands and send me to office. Save cab fare for this morning. :) Very broke this month already. Luckily CNY is round the corner. Still got some ang bao money. Damn! Got to get a night job soon if not I sure don't have enough money to spend. Especially not working at night will tend to go out and spend more at night. :(

For the past 2 years, I get to celebrate CNY with jian. Feel weird without him around this year. I miss last year CNY when I went back to his hometown with him. :( Leong doesn't celebrate CNY. He don't buy new year clother, don't buy new year stuff and worst still he will be working during CNY. wtf right? Not much of CNY mood this year. I miss u so much. Haix.

2010-02-10T10:56:00.002+08:00

CNY is round the corner. I can't wait for CNY to come so that there will be holiday for me. I'm tired. Really tired. Even though i've stop working in Jimm's I still feel tired.

Yesterday Ken was in a bad mood and I get scolded from him. I know it was my fault cos i'm hell damn lazy to do work. Was not in a good mood either. Menses cramp. So I just ignore him. Had a minor arguement with Leong. After that Ken talk to me nicely le. Haha.

I saw Zhen Kang last friday while waiting for Qing at causeway point. I feel very happy to see old friends. ZK accompany us for dinner. Qing went off after that. Me and ZK went to mac to chit chat as I need to wait for Leong to finish work. Leong was angry cos i'm with ZK. I can't be bothered. He is over possessive. Went to find Leong after he finish work and stay over at his place.

Last Saturday, I finally get to club again!!!! Went to Dbl O to celebrate Roch's birthday. I had fun cos Qing was there. :) I miss clubbing so much. I can't wait to go clubbing with her again. Qing came to my house to sleep over after that.

Nothing much to do on Sunday. Stay at home for the whole day and went to find Qing at night. I brought Coco over to her house to play. Coco seems very happy there. :)

Was on mc on Monday. Leong came to fetch me and we went to Pasir ris farmway. Nth much to see. Went to Giant for breakfast and back to his house to rest. Had a good rest till night and we went out for dinner. Meet Qing at woodgrove and went to Jimm's pub to sing. Boss say he hate me when he saw me. Lol.

Yesterday after work went to meet Leong and slack at my place for awhile and I went to Fion's house for the gathering. Fion is going back to Malaysia to be a full time mother and full time amway. Happy to her success now that she don't need to work anymore. Envious!
Initially Leong wanted to wait for me to finish my gathering and fetch me from there, but his friend called and he went to drink with his friends. So I went to partyworld to find mummy after my gathering. She was there with her workers cos her workers ask her to treat them sing after their hardwork. Lol.
Leong called me and told me he is going to Balestier to drink. Nightclub somemore. Still ask me not to worry cos he will be faithful to me. As if! But me, being an understanding gf didn't get angry with him. Still ask him to enjoy. Like shit. If it was the other way round he already pick up another quarrel with me. Was so worried for him that he have to ride home after that cos he told me that he was drunk. Waited for him to reach home safely before I sleep. Damn tired.

Ken came in to the office just now and saw me blogging again and he give me the look. Haha. Funny. Then I close down my window immediately. Got $1000 for red packet!!! :) Shiok. Think this is the biggest ang bao I get this year. So generous of him. :) Nice boss is all I can say. Haha.

Alright, I think I shall stop here. Wishes to all of you for good health, prosperity and good luck this year!

2010-02-07T16:45:00.000+08:00

Regret!

2010-02-05T16:31:00.003+08:00

I went to Jimm's pub yesterday and finally boss talk to me! :) I'm glad that at least this shows that he is not that angry with me. :)

Yesterday night is not a good night. Leong told me he is going down to jimms with Edwin. So I wanted to give him a surprsise and went down but didn't see him there. So I msg him and tell him i'm there and he was angry. Wtf? He came down and saw xiao di and ang was sitting with me and he was angry. Quarrel over small matter. Worth it or not? Spoil my night. Haiz.

Anyway I enjoyed yesterday except for the quarrel part with Leong. I went off with Leong first. We went to Jetty and talk about the first time when we were there. Talk halfway he mention about things in jimms again. Very sian lor. People already don't want to quarrel with him anymore he still want to mention it. Can't stand him.

Feel like clubbing today as i'm not working. Haha. But then, can't go lah. Leong finish work at 11pm today. Hope tomorrow night i'm able to attend Roch birthday. They are going to club and i'm really excited about it. Hopefully Leong will allow me to go. :)

I keep on repeating one of Zhang Hui Mei song since morning till now. I really miss that someone a lot. Wonder how is he now?

2010-02-04T14:30:00.002+08:00

Finally went to register for my exam yesterday. I went off from office very early and I thought I will reach home early yesterday. Waited for the bus for damn long. Finished everything by 4pm and I gei kiang go and take bus to yishun as I heard from my classmates that it is faster. Bullshit. They bluff me lah. Took me 1 and a half hour to reach yishun. I was damn pissed off and was in a bad mood cos of the stupid long journey bus. The bus stop for every 100m. Traffic light also stop, bus stop also stop which makes me feel like vomitting. Argh!

Wanted to go 768 to find Leong for dinner but he told me that he is working. Not free to accompany me for dinner. Already in a bad mood, so when he told me that i'm quite pissed off with him. Damn fake lor. As if I don't know about his working pattern. Previously when he need me to go down to pass him hp charger then he ask me to go down to look for him when he is working. Making use of me only.

Stay at home yesterday night to watch "hai pai tian xin". Very nice show. Initially when qing ask me to watch I told her I don't like to watch taiwan show, but don't know why i'm in love with this show. Haha. Some part of the show really reminds me of Jian. After watching the show I keep on thinking about him during lunch time. Haha. I'm crazy. I know.

Think I shall stay at home tonight to rest after work since I have nothing to do. Feels a bit weird that i'm not going to work tonight. Haha. Haven't get used to it yet.

2010-02-02T12:37:00.002+08:00

Well, i'm here to update again cos hhpy say my blog is like ghost town. :)

Hmmm, 21st birthday party still ok lah. I enjoyed on both friday and saturday. Only the later part of the night was spoil. Whatever! I was drunk before 11pm on friday. Haha. Lousy me. The feeling sucks and I vomit until I wanted to vomit all my intestine out also. Hate that feeling.

I'm no longer working at jimm's pub. Last Thursday was my last day and I got myself drunk on my last day. Haha. Goodbye Jimm's pub. I will still miss that place cos I have learn quite a few things there.

Friday night after work, I went to KL with my da jie and er jie. The coach was delayed by half an hour. Idiot. Reach KL at 1am and my aunt came to fetch us. Had fun shopping with my sis and cousin on sat. We shop for the whole day. The car boots was full of all the stuff that we bought. :) I bought the most things. :) Very long didn't go for shopping already and I really enjoyed. Wanted to go clubbing but all of us were too tired. So we decided to go home and have some drinks and chit chat together.
Before going back to Singapore on Sunday, we went for a body massage. Hmmm, not good. Waste of my time and money there.

Reach Singapore at 8plus. Got a young girl only realised that she didn't have her passport with her when we reach custom. Pity her. Travel all the way from KL to johor already then realised. Leong came to my house to fetch me and we went to sit at a playground to talk. Edwin and Qing join us after that. Not a very happy night. Keep on quarreling with Leong. We got nothing much to talk le. Even when we quarrel we are too tired to quarrel also. We rather just keep quiet and don't talk to each other.

Went to Jimm's pub to take my salary yesterday. After that went up to the KTV and sing with Leong. Feel quite uncomfortable after drinking and I rest at Leong place. Didn't go to his house for more than a week already. His father and mother smile to me when they see me. Haha. Surprising. Maybe they are in good mood yesterday.

Hmmm, I only got 1 friend hhpy. Haha. That was what he say cos he is the only one who tag me. Lol. Kkz la, I got hhpy enough already. Cos he is a nice, intelligent and handsome hhpy. :) LOL. Hope hhpy see this will feel happy. Haha.

2010-01-22T10:40:00.002+08:00

Looking forward to today! Hope it will be fun. :)

Wanted to take leave today but Ken ask me to come for half day. :( Sian. Still need to go and do my hair and make up. Don't know whether will be rushing for me or not.

Yesterday work was ok. Not many customer. I feel bad to let Qing work alone inside cos I was sitting outside accompanying boss friend as she was alone. So I feel guilty and after she left I do as much work as I can so that Qing can rest. Sorry ar Qing. Love u lah! Muacks.

Tonight Qing is going to take care of me and help me drink. Hope both of us won't get drunk. :)

2010-01-21T14:05:00.003+08:00

Just received a call from supervisor. Heard that they are going to transfer me to Bukit Batok Jimm's pub. FUCK! I don't want. It is so damn far and not convenient for me. ARGH!

2010-01-21T10:59:00.003+08:00

1 more day!!!!!!!! :)

Yesterday night Lynn cancel the plan to study cos she need to look after her kids. Initially I don't want to meet Leong cos I want to rest at home but he keep on complaining till I cannot stand him. Went to Jimm's pub with him to have a drink. I don't dare to walk in to talk to boss. Scare he will say me. Leong always talk crap when he drink. Can't stand him!

Went to his house for awhile and waited for him to prepare for work. He send me home and I was quite tired but I couldn't sleep. Wanted to sleep but I went out again with js. Had a nice chat with him. Yesterday reminds me of a special day with Jian 2 years ago. Haiz. But no more. I can't stop thinking about it. It just bring back a lot of memories of him yesterday.

Went home at 2 plus and i'm super duper tired now. js even worst. He got to wake up at 6.15 today. :( feel bad to make him accompany me till so late.

Chris didn't send me to work today. :( So damn lazy to go to work alone. I'm spending too much in cab this week. Got to control myself.

I'm going to Kl next week. I want to shop! Haiz. Going there bring back a lot of memories between me and him again. Hopefully one day i will get over it.

I find that recently I have been treating Leong quite bad and he is the one who listen to me now instead of me listening to him. My attitude and temper is quite bad recently. He really change quite a lot. Should cherish him and stop thinking back of the past.

2010-01-20T10:00:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for this friday. I hope it will be fun! Will be celebrating my birthday at jimm's pub. Qing is going to be nanny that day as she will be taking care of me. :) Hope she don't get drunk.

Yesterday I went to far east to do my nails with Qing. Meet Henry after that and we went to somewhere at Changi Chapel Museum there to have our dinner. Had a great time spent. Went to Upper seletar to relax and something damn embrassing happen. I was very urgent to pee and I did my small business at the bush. Haha. First time lor. Pai sei. *blush*

Alright. I'm tired. Going to have a good rest before my boss come in to the office.

2010-01-15T14:37:00.002+08:00

just received a call from daddy. He nag at me that my grandma just came back from Malaysia and ask me to accompany her more and show more concern for her. He said that grandma went to malaysia for so long also nobody help her to water the plants etc. Daddy say our home is not like a home. Everyday there's no one at home. Wtf? As if we don't need to work izzit? Then what about our income? Are u going to give us? Must be grandma complain to him again that nobody care about her and she do this do that like a maid. Come on la, I know u help out a lot in the housework. But since u are not working and always home, just help a bit also want to complain? Then don't take money from us next time. As if I don't like to stay at home and rest. I just don't have the time. Do u know how tired and annoying it is to wake up by the alarm clock every morning to wake up for work? U think all of us like it? Who doesn't like to sleep till we wake up naturally? Daddy said we never spare a thought for grandma, then what about himself? He only come back once in a week and seldom talk to grandma. U didn't even give your own mother money to support her. Who is the one who is supporting her all this while? US! YOUR EX WIFE AND 2 DAUGHTER OK!!!! Mummy is not even related to her in anyway now and STILL SUPPORTING HER! call yourself her son but didn't give her any money. Haha. Do u even have the rights to say us? I'm damn pissed off when u said that one day u will beat mummy and Uncle Khoo when u cannot tolerate all the nonsense with us. Who are u to do that? HELLO! both of u has already divorce! Do u understand the meaning of divorce? Means u are nobody to her now. She got all her freedom to do what she want. She can don't support your mum do u know that? She can jollywell just throw her out of the house. Just thank god that u have found such a good wife but u didn't cherish her. And she being such a nice person didn't chase your mum out of the house when u left the family with another woman. I wanted to tell u that all this that has happen to our family is all because of u! U are the one who is unfaithful to his marriage and now u are angry that mummy is seeing another guy? I was hoping for this day to come the moment u cheated on her. I want to let u know how mummy felt many years back when u decided to leave the family. We are close to mummy and treat her better than u because she deserve it ok? All these years after u left, do u know how miserable mummy is? Do u know how hard she work just to support the family and taking care of us? U never know how difficult it is for her. To work and support the family and to take care of us because we were still YOUNG! Yes! WE WERE STILL YOUNG AND U LEFT US! and that was the time we need discipline the most and mummy need to worry so much about us.
U only know how to say but what have u done? U said we didn't care for grandma, then what about u? Did u? U said me and mummy always go out early in the morning and come home late at night like some big business woman. Are u jealous that mummy is more capable than u now? That she even give some of her customer to u and let u earn! Oh god! Why is my mum so stupid to pity this kind of jerk and he don't even appreciate? If i'm mummy, I will never do the same. Look at how u have treated her all this year and she still treat u so nice? I feel so heartpain for mummy. I know how much she has suffered.
and u dare to say me working day and night and not going home to help grandma with the housework? I started to work at Jimms' is all because of YOU! Remember? Do u still remember why I went to work at Jimm's pub? U think i'm not tired working from morning till night and how my life has change upside down ever since I work at Jimm's! If I never start to work there, Jian will still be in Singapore now! We are still happily together!
U think I like to drink until i'm damn bloated and even vomitted sometimes? The time spent with family is getting lesser? I only see mummy in the morning for less than an hour everyday! I only get to see er jie on a saturday and sunday morning unless I wake up super early on the weekday which is so impossible for me cos I work till late night! Fuck U!
Helping out in the housework? I'm not tired enough to work 2 jobs? I don't even have enough time to sleep. Where do I find time to help out in the housework? If u got the ability then u go and find a maid to help grandma!
I supply groceries, transport fee and her necessary needs whenever she take money from me and I didn't complain. Er jie spend the most time with her at home. Isn't that enough? And I got a dog to accompany her when she is bored. Keeping a dog need to spend a lot too u know? She kp about the dog but can't bear to give her away. Wtf is old people thinking?
Me and mummy provide money and Er jie provide time for her. Other than that we have our own social life. Is that wrong? Can't expect us to stick with her for 24/7 hour. asshole!

2010-01-14T11:52:00.002+08:00

Had a big argument with Leong on Tuesday outside jimm's. :( But we are ok now. He give in a lot to me and i'm glad that he change a lot.

Candy called me yesterday and ask me whether I can work or not. I wanted to but Leong keep on persuading me not to go cos he want me to accompany him.

While going for driving lesson, the cab driver that send me to the driving centre was so perverted. Ask me personal question like whether I sleep with my bf all that and ask me where I stay and my number. WTF!!!!!

Yesterday driving lesson sucks. Instructor ask me to drive the test route yesterday. I sucks a lot at driving.

Leong pick me up after lesson. He bought a blue rose and a bear for me. :) So sweet. It is exactly the same as what Jian has bought it for me last year for our 1 year annivesary. Reminds me of him again. Haiz.
Leong bring me to Sembawang Park to relax. We talk about the day that we went there together with Gary and Shirley. Miss the days. :(
Back to his home after that and he overslept for work. He start work at 11pm but we sleep till 1 plus. Lol.

Supposingly Leong wanted to send me to work this morning but he was too tired to send me after work. :( have to go to work myself. So sian.

2010-01-12T16:57:00.002+08:00

Bored. Still considering whether I should wait for Chris till 6pm to fetch me home or just go off myself. So bored waiting at the office till 6pm but lazy to take train home now.

Supposed to meet Lynn for revision tonight but Leong told me that he is sick and asked me to accompany him. He was angry that I didn't want to accompany him. Wtf? Yesterday night he still send me a sms and say that he is very understanding and let me have my own time to do revision for my exam. But today change pattern already. Other than work, I already spend almost all my free time with him already. What do he expect now? Can't even give me my own time to study for my exam? Selfish! Still expect me to go and find him myself. Argh! pissed!

When I told him that Chris is coming to fetch me, he was very angry. He didn't even give me a chance to explain to him who is Chris. Recently we keep on arguing about small matter. Can't stand it anymore!

2010-01-11T14:51:00.002+08:00

Back to work on Monday again.

I was not feeling well during work on friday. :(
Left the office quite early and meet Leong and his friends at Admiralty mrt and we went over to Gary's wake. I went there for awhile and went to work at night.
Leong came to fetch me from work and we went over to Gary wake. Was quite tired and after awhile and we went home. Leong ask me to accompany him to sleep that night cos he was afraid. Haha. So cute lor. Never see him like that before. Back to his place and I was feeling very cold that night. Was not feeling well and Leong was super sweet to take care of me. :)

It was very sad to see Gary for the last time yesterday. Rest in peace Gary.

Yesterday was feeling very uncomfortable at work. I slept at the table behind. Don't know whether my supervisor is angry with me or not. :(

2010-01-08T10:42:00.003+08:00

I took mc yesterday cos I was not feeling well in the morning. Went to find Leong in the morning when he finish work. Leong suddenly received a msg from one of his brother that another brother of theirs met with a motorbike accident and he is in ICU. We rush down to Changi General Hospital to visit him and I saw that there was a lot of relatvies and friends of his standing outside his bed looking at him. It was a very sad scene and he just passed away like that. It was my first time to see such a scene like that. I feel very sad to see this kind of situation. Most of the people cried. I feel sorry for his parents the most. Can see that they really can't bear to leave their son when the nurse was pushing his body away to bring him to the mort. When we went in to see him for the last time all the brothers cried. My heart sank. Gary is only so young. Not even 20. Life is really unpredictable. Still remember the times when I went out with him together Leong they all. He take care of all his friends a lot. He never fail to follow Leong all the way home till he see Leong and I reach his block safe then he went back home. But he never take care of himself and met with an accident. Gary ar, why u only know how to take care of your brother and not yourself also? I really feel very sorry for u. U still have a bright future ahead. U just sign on for your army. But why didn't u ride carefully? I really don't want u to leave all of us behind. Among all the brother, u are always the one who make the outing happening. U are the most humorous one. Now we are short of one people to drink with us, go out with us and go rounding with us. U still haven't attend my 21st birthday u know? How can u just leave like that?
We should cherish everyone around us cos we can never predict what will happen anytime.

Alright, enough of that. Yesterday was a busy night at work. Only 3 staff working. And there was an idiotic customer. Hate him to the core. Finish work quite late yesterday and I am bloody tired now. Zzzz.

2010-01-04T16:33:00.000+08:00

It's another new year. I'm turning 21 this year in another 18 days!

Work during New Year eve. Not bad. Get to enjoy a bit cos it was not as busy as Christmas eve.

Supposed to finish work early on Sunday. But we accompany an ang moh couple till 2 plus. Chris came to send me home. We send the ang moh back to their shipyard first and they show us around the ship. My first time there. A good experience for me. Nice view.
Went for supper with Chris and Qing at Woodgrove and home sweet home. Bloody tired the next day at work.

Yesterday Leong accompany me to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks 2. Nice show. But Leong doesn't like to watch movie. He look so bored during the show. :(
Went home after the movie cos Leong was tired. Saw Thaqif while Leong went to take his bike. Yesterday Leong's mother very dao again. Seriously don't feel like calling her everytime I see her. But I don't have a choice.

Alright, hell damn lots of work to do!

2009-12-31T11:59:00.002+08:00

I'm back from my holiday!

Christmas eve sucks to the core. Not enjoying at all. Work is hell damn busy! And things cock up during work. Argh! I hope it won't be the same tonight! So sian Qing won't be working with me tonight! Haiz.

Trip to Sabah is fun! I'm happy cos I get to meet Jian!!!!!! Long story. Spend my 3 days there with him. Really miss him hell damn lots. Haiz. Time just pass so fast whenever i'm with him. How I wish time could stop at that moment. Really miss him damn lots ever since I met him that night. Feel very confused now cos he asked me to move over there to stay with him but I don't want to sacrifice and give up everything here.

Half day today. Going home soon! Haha. Shiok!

2009-12-22T16:07:00.002+08:00

Yesterday while on the way home, Coco vomitted in the cab. Damn pai sei. I apologise a lot of times to the taxi driver. But partly also his fault cos he don't know how to drive. Haha.

After I reach home, I went to get prepare and wait for Leong to finish work. We didn't go anywhere. So sian. Only went for dinner then went back home. Both of us were quite tired after work already and we fell asleep. Didn't accompany each other much. Haiz. Really miss the time when he was not working at night.
I find that working at night we really got no time for each other. But if Leong works in the day he cannot tahan cos he is more to nightlife.
We quarrel again this afternoon regarding we have no time for each other and he doesn't like me to work in a pub. Wth. Quarrel so many times over this issue already still want to quarrel over it again.
But somehow we are ok now already.

Christmas is coming. Can't wait for christmas eve. Qing told me over the phone that the way supervisor plan the schedule for me and qing sucks a lot. Cannot enjoy somehow one. Think she should re plan again. Shall talk to her about it on Thursday. I really hope I get to enjoy my christmas eve.

2009-12-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

Tiring week last week. Friday and Saturday was a busy day at work. Supervisor was not around. We only had 4 staff on Friday. Got one uncle open 6 bottle of red wine and all of us drink together with him. Cannot tahan red wine. Called Qing and ask her to come down for help. Luckily she came down and help out cos 2 of the staff were drunk. I'm really damn pissed off cos I was hell damn busy as they didn't do anything. They seems more like enjoying themselves than working. Only me and 1 more staff do all the work. Tired running here and there. I feel pai sei to ask qing to help me when she was not working on that day.
Leong came that night with his friends to drink and waited for me to finish work. Went to his house to pei him after that. I was bloody tired and keep on complaining to him. Angry day!

I was late for work on Saturday. haha. We only had 3 staff. Supervisor was not around. There was no customer initially. Then suddenly almost all the tables outside was occupied. Hell damn busy running in and out and I drink a lot that night. My mind can't even work that night. I was too busy and blur to know what i'm doing. Almost all the customer ask me to drink. Drink here and there. Then got customer vomitted AGAIN! AND I NEED TO CLEAR IT! 2ND TIME ALREADY! DAMN PISSED!
It was a busy day that even boss and Andrew came to help out. First time seeing boss helping in the kitchen. Haha. Boss was angry and say that how can the supervisor put only 3 staff on Saturday night.
It was a fun and tiring night. Been drinking a lot for the past few days and I had a big tummy now. I want to slim down soon.

Recently me and Leong hardly got the time to spent together already. Both of us are busy working. Even when we meet after work both of us were so tired already. Didn't talk much also. Feel that we are drifting apart. Even he said that to me too. Hmmm, I hope this won't remain for too long. I want to go back like how we used to.

2009-12-16T11:00:00.002+08:00

Driving lesson on Monday still sucks. I think I sucks at driving. :(
Leong came to fetch me after my lesson. We went home to get change then went out for dinner. Went to Bojangles to drink after that. I was hell damn tired that day but he wants to drink. So we went to a place nearby. Saw Sarah's mum working there. Lol.
Went back to Leong's house and saw his dad downstairs. Went to sleep immediately. Damn tiring day.

Yesterday I stay in office till 8 plus cos I brought Coco to my office. So waited till 8 to go home to avoid peak hour charge. Managed to clear up some of my work. I called Jian yesterday to ask him about something. Really miss his voice so much. I can't control my tears the moment I heard his voice. I hope I won't be thinking so much about him. Miss him badly. Haiz.
Had an early night yesterday but I didn't sleep well. Yawnz.

Working tonight again. I will be working from Wednesday to Sunday this week. Will be damn tiring for me.

Can't wait for next week to come. Especially Christmas day cos I will be away for holiday till 30 Dec.

2009-12-14T12:08:00.002+08:00

Tiring tiring day. This morning the moment I step into office then kena say by XP. Ask me don't always come to office with sleepy face as there are many people in the office started saying me already. Sian lor. Early in the morning come to office then kena say. Spoil my mood for the rest of the day.

So envious of Leong that he is sleeping soundly now. Somemore he can sleep all the way till evening. I feel like doing that too. Haiz.

Nothing much happen in my life recently. Everything is still the same. No life. Boring life. Work and work. Zzzz.

2009-12-08T12:04:00.002+08:00

Finally I went clubbing last friday!!!!!! Happy happy! Seriously miss clubbing so much. I enjoyed myself to the max last friday. Had a lot of fun. Thanks to Qing for making it happen. :)

Work on Saturday sucks. Many things happen which pissed me off. I think my supervisor hates me a lot. Keep on nagging and finding problem for me. Whatever happen seems to be my fault and blame me for everything. Shit her. Super angry with her that night. And my she didn't put my schedule to work on Sunday. All along my schedule is fixed from Thursday to Sunday but she only put me for 3 days and 7 days for 2 chinagirl.
The more I think the more angry I am so I go and tell boss and she change the schedule back. :)

Cousin wedding on Sunday. Went to malaysia to attend his wedding. Feel bored over there. Get to see many of my relatives which I haven't seen them for a few years. One of my cousin is damn pretty. Envious!

Yesterday night I went to pay respect and visit Leong's great grandmother. Went for dinner after that. Got ourselves a couple watch! So sweet! Went to Mount faber for awhile then to Kent Ridge park. had a nice chat. I'm glad that he is trying to control his temper nowadays. He told me among all his gf i'm the one that makes him angry the most. Haha. He told me i've change alot. I used to listen to him everytime but recently i've done a lot of things which makes him angry. Trying to change back to the old me. I miss the times when there was no quarrel between us.
This morning he told me his grandfather passed away and all his family member had went back to Malaysia but he couldn't go back cos he don't have a passport. Then he ask me to help him wash his clothes as his mum won't be at home to wash for him. Suddenly become his maid already. Anyway, I do it willingly lah cos he finish work at 4am. Don't think he will have the energy to wash his clothes when he gets home. Somemore he wake up early in the morning to send me to work. One thing that I don't like to help him to do the housework is only bcos of his mum. Always like to comment on what I do. The previous when his mum saw the way I hang the clothes she comment that I don't know the correct way to hang the clothes. Was angry lor. That is the way how my mum taught me what. Different people got different ways of doing things. And it is not as if the clothes won't be dry bcos of the way i'm hanging it. Comment so much for what. If she is not Leong's mum I really will argue back with her. Can't stand her. If she ever become my mother-in-law I will commit suicide. And the previous time when her mum was going to malaysia she still purposely tell Leong very loudly that make sure all the things in the house is not being touch especially her utensils, cooking pot, etc. I think she wanted to tell me indirectly. Please lah, as if I want to touch her things. My house things are all much more nicer and new. Leong find his mum ridicuolous and told his mum to might as well keep all the cooking utensils in her room and lock it so that we won't touch it. Lol. Hate going to his house cos I know I will see his mum and she ignore me everytime I call her. Really don't feel like calling her cos I know she won't answer me but I still call her as a respect. I no longer go to his living room when i'm at his house. I stay in his room the moment I step into his house and only step out of his roon when I want to go home. Even when I want to go to the washroom I still wait till his mum went off from the kitchen then I go to the washroom just to avoid seeing her face. Really don't know how to get along with her. Plus she is very superstitious. Still dare to call herself a christian but choose to listen to the chinese belief. I thought christian shouldn't be so superstitious. This morning when Leong grandpa passed away his mum ask him to go to the wake is not because of the grandpa. She said is because Leong will have bad luck for many years if he never attend his own grandpa funeral. Christian got believe in this kind of things one meh?

Whatever. I'm tired. Going to nap. Zzzz.

2009-12-01T12:32:00.002+08:00

Got to work today. Sian sian sian.

Yesterday Leong fetch me from work and we don't know where to go. I wanted to find kor but he doesn't want. Really hate it lor. So far he is the only guy that never give in to me. Was quite unhappy. Went to Downtown east for dinner instead. After dinner Leong ride past the red house and stop outside for awhile. It was demolish already. Still feel eerie though and I asked Leong to go off. He bring me to OCH instead. Shit him. There was no lamp posts and very dark along the road inside OCH. I asked him not to turn in and he insist on turning in. I nearly wanted to jump off the bike cos I was too scare. That was how I manage to stop him from going in. Phew!

Went to Swensens to have some ice cream and went down to jimms at sbw. Didn't want to go down since i'm not working yesterday but leong insist on going down. Sometimes I really hate him a lot. Always want to do things that I don't want to. Was a bit pissed off when I reach there. Saw my boss so I quickly went upstairs to the ktv room. Boss called and told me he saw me.

Had a good talk with Leong yesterday night. Finally I manage to complain some of my unhappiness to him and I hope he will really understand. I'm really tired. I didn't had a good rest for 2 months plus already.

Went for driving lesson today. Sucks. I think i'm a very lousy driver. Instuctor also keep on shaking his head.

After lesson received a call from Leong. He told me he is not working on this friday. Totally sian. Haiz. Wonder when will I get my freedom back again?????

2009-11-30T10:43:00.002+08:00

Suddenly think of him this morning again. Every morning when I step in to the office, I will see the things that he return to me under my table and it reminds me of him. I seriously miss him. I hope he is doing fine.

Last Thursday Leong came to fetch me from work. I wanted to go clubbing after work and already plan nicely with my friend already then Leong suddenly sms me and tell me he is not working. Sian 1/2. Haiz. No choice.
He was already tipsy when he came and started to talk rubbish. Asked my supervisor to take out 2 bucket of Heineken and all of us drink with him. I didn't want to drink cos previously I had a lot of martell. Very high that night and Leong insist to ride bike home. I was praying that nothing will happen on the way home. He was talking crap and asking me stupid question when we reach home and I have to listen to his crap. Finally get him to sleep at 4 plus before I get to sleep.
I keep on making fun of him the next morning when he wake up. Went home to shower, talk to mummy for awhile and I went back to sleep.

Working on a friday night. Not very busy but we finished work quite late. Boss's friends always stay until very late and we can't go home. Went to find Leong at 768 after work. Qing didn't want to go and I drag her to accompany me. thanks qing! Love u la. I know u are the best. Haha.

Supervisor off on Saturday. I stayed till 4am that night. Qing and Ann stay till 5am. Poor us. Stay till so late but got no OT.
Leong complain that we don't spend much time together and was very unhappy that night. :(

Yesterday was a very relax day at work. Not much customer. Sales was very bad. Mickey came suddenly and bought a nike jacket for me. Supervisor ask him to get for all the staff also. Lol. Yesterday night was the earliest night that we finish work. Happy that I can go home and rest early. :)

Leong promised to send me to work today but he didn't wake up. :( Had to take a cab to work. Waste money again.

2009-11-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

I'm back from 2 days of mc. Finally I manage to have 2 rest day. This friday is a ph. I'm so happy. Means I only need to come back to office for 2 days this week. :)
My finger is still numb till now. Hope it will recover soon.

Monday morning Leong came to fetch me and we went out for breakfast at yishun, then went to get my helmet done and went to sembawang shopping centre for a walk. Finally there's a day that me and leong got one whole day off together. Been waiting for this day for 2 months.
Went to Jimms pub at bukit batok with Leong. Enjoyed my night.

Supposed to go for a training this morning. Leong fetch me in the morning. I thought it was at novena but couldn't find the place. Called Ken and he said it was at Boat Quay. Went over to Boat quay then I realised I didn't bring my IC with me so Ken asked me back to office. That's when I realised I didn't bring my ez-link card. Wanted to buy standard ticket but I don't havve any cash and ATM card with me. Everything was in the other bag that I brought out yesterday. Called Leong immediately and he came back to fetch me to office and pass me money. So sweet lor, end up he was late for work. I feel bad and guilty.

Saw Billy while going home just now. Talk to him for awhile then saw wen bin and er jie. Went to night market to walk walk for awhile. It has been so long since I saw wen bin.

Back home early today. Got to sleep early. Feeling tired.

2009-11-18T15:17:00.002+08:00

Very stress up at work. I mess up everything at work and I am still damn lazy to go and get it done. Tell me why am I so lazy? I only think of sleeping everytime. Haiz.

Finally after so long I went to watch a movie. Watch 2012 with Leong. I find it quite a nice movie but Leong find it boring. Back to his home after movie and he show me something super sweet. He develop all the pic that we took together and paste it on his room wall. We had a very long chat just like how we used to. I miss those time.

Went to JB with mummy yesterday night. I had foot massage. Not as good as what I expect. Didn't buy a lot of things. Nothing much to buy.
Leong didn't go to work at night and he came to meet me. We went to Yishun dam and sembawang park. He say that he didn't bring me out for quite some time already. Glad that he still realised it and he suggested to send me to work this morning. :) I am happy that we are back to normal.

Something pissed me off on Monday. I left my cigarette in Jimms on Sunday and when I was on the way to Jimms on Monday to take it back, Qing told me that one of the regular customer there took it already. Damn freaking pissed off! As if I know that customer very well like that. Anyhow take my cig without my permission. Somemore I just bought it on that day itsef and I didn't smoke much of it. Angry lah! As if i'm the supplier for cigarette at Jimms like that. Then I might as well don't work at jimms lor. Work until so tired everytime but the money that I earn are used to buy cigartte and supply the customer there. I swear next time I won't take out my cigarette anymore!!!!!!

2009-11-14T10:24:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a super busy day at work. The moment I reach Jimms there are a lot of people. Rarely got the chance to go for a smoke break and I didn't go to the washroom at all till I finish work.

Leong came to pick me up after work but it was raining. So he ask me to take transport and meet under his blk. So sian lor, friday is the only day that he get to fetch me from work then it was raining. Got to wait till next friday le. Really miss the times when we just know each other. He will fetch me from jimms everyday and we will go out first before going back to his home. Nowadays he is busy with work, we seldom got the time to go be so sweet like before. Even when I ask him to bring me to supper he also refused to. When I report to work at 4.30 he also didn't go and buy dinner for me anymore. I always go home alone at night when I go to his house. He never send me home anymore. I understand that he is tired, but i'm also tired lor. Last time he still will call and chat with me on the phone even when he didn't send me home, now he just go back to sleep and no call from him le. Hé didn't even bother whether I reach home safely or not.

Been missing him a lot. Wonder how is he doing now? I really hope time can turn back to 1 year ago.

2009-11-13T12:15:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a fun night. I didn't go to work at night. Went to Alley bar with Andrew and min min. Alley bar was having some annivesary there. There was free flow from 7pm-9pm. Min min bf was working there so min min asked us to go. We were quite high and I got the urge to go clubbing listening to the music.
Went to the nightclub where andrew and min min used to work. They show me around. Enjoyed and we went down to jimms after that. Boss told supervisor next time cannot anyhow approve to change schedule unless it is emergency and not bcos of leisure and fun. Didn't talk to supervisor for the whole night. I think she is angry with me. Overall I enjoyed. Was accompanying and talking to boss for the whole night till he went home. I'm quite high and tipsy yesterday. haha.
Business has been bad for this month. Still thinking of a way how to bring up the sales. I really hope I can help to bring up the business at Jimms even though i'm not the boss there. Just want to help my boss cos he is a nice guy.

Meet Leong at my blk when I reach home. I think he miss me a lot for not seeing me for the whole day. He sneak out during work to come and meet me for awhile. He told me he never see me for a day he already feel very xin ku. Sweet talk lor. Chat with him for awhile then he send me home. It's the first time that he hug me so tightly. Wonder what happen to him. Maybe something is bothering him ba.

This morning I was too tired and lazy to wake up for work. Whole body really ache a lot. Doctor says maybe it is due to lethargic and asked me to drink a glass of warm milk everynight before I sleep. I slept till 9am then I wake up to get prepare for work. Reach office at 11am. Luckily no one is in the office yet. Haha. Only xp knows i'm late cos I informed him. so today will be a short day for me. from 11am-5pm. Lol. Only 6 hours of work. Hopefully 6 hours pass faster. Still aching all over. I need a body and foot massage badly. 2 of my fingers also feel very painful whenever I stretch or bend it. Really very xin ku working there.

Lesson going to start on Dec and exam on Jan. I'm afraid that I can't cope. My schedule will be damn pack for the next month.
Mon- Leong off day.
Tues and Thurs - Lesson
Wed, Fri, Sat, Sun - work

Somemore working 2 jobs now. Where got time to study. When I told leong about it he was quite unhappy. He said i'm so busy. Never spare a thought for him and find time to accompany him and asked me to quit my job at jimms again. I told him if I quit I don't have enough money to pay for my exam fees and driving lesson. If only I got a rich parents, how nice will it be? Then I don't need to tired myself till this extend. I can't stand it anymore. Tired, plus neck, body and foot aching. I can't wear high heels anymore. Can't wait for 25 dec to come to go for my holiday so that I can have a good rest. Wonder going there is a good thing or bad thing. I will think of Jian for sure cos i'm going to his hometown.